It Has Been A Tough Week

It’s been a tough week for me. Not just reading wise.- Nearly everything I have picked up this week has just been terribly discouraging.

I have read a total of four things on and off, only one of them getting finished. Hopefully I’ll finish book number two today.

The book I finished yesterday, actually wasn’t even really a book, but a graphic novel. I know it’s still reading, and that it counts. However, even though it was a focal point of something that usually would catch my attention, it fell really flat. I’ll post a full review of Marie Antoinette Phantom Queen sometime later this week when I’ve fully absorbed it, and can actually get words out.

That’s another thing. I’m losing words. Or at least I feel like I’m losing them. Maybe it’s just because everything else has been dragging me down? I’m not sure.

About a month ago, I purchased a very cheap, student grade Violin. Something that I’ve really wanted to pursue for awhile, but finding someone helpful to achieve that goal? Surprisingly frustrating!

Through all my music endeavors , I’ve been able to find teachers without issue. Teachers that are willing to work with me despite having a disability.  For whatever reason, violin continues to elude me.

For those of you who may be new, I have Spastic Cerebral Palsy. It varies from case, but for me, It mostly effects both my legs, and the left side of my body. I can walk extremely short distances with the aid of an arm, or a walker. For everywhere else, I have my manual wheelchair.

I’ve played Piano for a very long time on and off. I had an absolutely wonderful teacher during my Freshmen year of High School. She’s since retired, but she was so lovely, and patient with me. I’ve never faced this sort of challenge before. Someone not willing to work with me on an instrument.

I played the Alto Saxophone for about 4 years while I was in middle school, and even though I had to have a little black box to prop up my saxophone, I played just fine, and with the other Alto Sax players who didn’t look at me any differently. And even though the school teacher couldn’t turn me away, despite having never worked with someone who was disabled, they researched, watched, listened,and adapted as needed.

During my Senior year of High school, (and my first few semesters of College when I still attended)  I picked up the bass guitar. In the end, while I enjoyed the bass It was very large, and very heavy for me to carry around all the time. I had difficulties playing something with such a wide, long neck, but it taught me something.

I had enough movement in my left hand to play notes. Which is what I needed for the violin. And so last month I finally purchased one. I have what I hope to be a few devices that will help me hold the bow, and the support of many people.

All in all, even though the week hasn’t been all that kind to me, hopefully the next will be better!